Here we go….”The Journey Begins”
So you’ve heard of the hit TV show the biggest loser. Well, I’m big but I’m done losing. I’m finished with the same old life and the same old routine. Today I proclaim that my life is going to change. Today is July 22, 2009. One year from today I will be exactly where I want to be. Today I weigh in at just over 280 lbs. One year from today I will be about 80 lbs lighter. Yes, 80 lbs. Today I smoke almost one pack per day. In a year from now….smoke free. Today I work as a truck driver. One year from now I’ll be working somewhere doing something I want to do. Today I might walk 4 or 5 blocks and then be tired. In just over a year from now, I will be walking with my wife in the Weekend To End Breast Cancer. 60 miles in three days. Today I don’t like the person I am…the way I look, the way I live, my job, my life in general. My wife and my daughter are my insperation. I want to be a success. A total success. So I hope you will for the next year follow along and watch the transformation. This is a promiss to my family and to myself…not for any other reason that I want to be happy.
For the majority of my life I’ve been the joke. The fat kid all throughout school. I was teased and picked on. Picked last for team sports and sometimes not picked at all. I’ve never been comfortable at the beach or at the pool, finding excuses not to take off my shirt. I could have gone somewhere with football, I was quite good. But my last year I had a coach who saw nothing more than a lump on the bench. Our team made it all the way through the season undefeted and to the championship. The big game was played at BC PLACE, home of the 2010 winter olympics openning and closing ceremonies and home to the BC LIONS. It was awe inspiring and a total dream of mine. Well, the asshole benched me for no reason. All my friends and family were there to watch me sit on the fucking sidelines. I never played another game again. Like I said before…I’m done losing. There comes a time in everyones life when they have to look themselves in the mirror and seriously ask the question, “Am I Happy?” I haven’t done one thing in my life that I can truly say I’m proud of. I’m proud of my family. I love my family. But that’s it.
Everything I’ve said in this post is just the tip of the iceberg. So today I begin my journey to a happier more enjoyable life. I hope you’ll join me.
In many ways, we are similar like that. I’m just around 295 pounds nowadays and I need to get rid of about 95 of that. I’ve always been the fat kid, always been picked on. I didn’t play football because I’ve been told all my life I wasn’t athletic enough. I drink far too much diet pop and caffeine, don’t get enough sleep, don’t exercise enough, and eat crap. I can walk a fair way, but not too fast, and certainly not 60 miles.
The hardest part for me is figuring out how to make the changes and yet keep up with all the demands on my life. My stresses from work, money, and so forth is what has a hold on me right now, and I need to figure out how to break that — how to take control of the situation. Stop the self-defeating actions. I know what I have to do…I just have to figure out how to tell myself to do it.
I wish you ALL the luck in the world on this and I’ll be very interested to watch. It’s a tough road and nobody out there, unfortunately, makes it any easier. But if we’re diligent, maybe we can both make a change for the better. Go get ‘em.
Nathan Pralle - July 23, 2009 at 12:44 pm |
The first thing I’ve done is counseling. For my own personal well being. The next step is to tell yourself that you are in control. You have to believe it or it won’t work. It’s hard. But such is life. Thanks for reading. It’s going to be a long journey.
bigdaddy81 - July 23, 2009 at 6:05 pm |